What the FUCK is with people, MY FRIENDS, treating me like shit lately? I am getting walked on and treated like dirt and I'm SICK of it. I am not that bad of a person to have my mates do that. What the fuck am I? An easy target? Because just like others, I say nothing weird or insulting (not to purposely hurt someone anyway) and yet I'm the one who gets the cold shoulders, the bitchy comments and the pure venom spat at me and I AM FUCKING DONE WITH IT! It’s always my fault, I'm always to blame. I'm always the one who is the bitch even though another friend could be acting the same way as I am. Of course they don’t become the baddies, oh no. It’s me. It’s fucking always me. And I don’t deserve it.
The amount of times I have stood up for and helped these friends who continue to treat me like this is unreal. If you are my so called ‘friend’ and you are reading this, take a look at yourself. Are you one of these people I'm talking about? Because if you are, be careful, because I am running out of patience fast.
Most of the time I say ‘oh it’s not their fault, they’re just having a bad day’ or ‘they don’t usually act like this so there must be something wrong’. That’s probably my problem, I let things slide too easily. I have been ignoring and trying to get passed this behaviour for so long but tonight it has really pushed my patience.
I have made up my mind tonight on this. I have dealt with enough assholes and bitches to last me for forever so I don’t want to waste my time and energy on people who treat me like their ‘punch bag’ so to speak. It’s not fair. I'm just going to start cutting people off, it’s hurting me too much to be pushed around like that. I don’t deserve it and I don’t want it.
I am not threatening anybody. I just want you all to know that I just don’t have much tolerance for people who are like this. Why can’t my friends go back to the way they were, before they got like this? Before they decided to take their frustrations out on me. They were the friends I really love.
I understand that I am a cow, I have always recognised that. So, if these people can give me a valid reason as to why they feel the need to be so mean, I will take it and I will apologise. But if there is no proper reason, then fix yourself, it is NOT a good way to be.
I don’t want to lose friends, so I am asking, please try. You probably don’t realize it but you really upset me sometimes with the way you go on.
Just try, please?
Grrrrrr BITCHES !!!! Nikki you is awesome and i'm always here to talk if you need to =]
ReplyDeleteIly !! xx